Do I Have It All Figured Out?12:59 AM
It’s almost midnight, and I’m here sitting in front of my laptop with a plate of Lucban Longganisa and rice on the side; my false lashes ...
It’s almost midnight, and I’m here sitting in front of my laptop with a plate of Lucban Longganisa and rice on the side; my false lashes freshly peeled off, and halfway through changing into my house clothes. This is about 40 minutes after I went on Google and typed, “How to cook Lucban Longganisa”—at least that bit, I’m sure now (after tasting my food) that I have figured out. The rest of my life? Hmm… This oddly feels like a scene from a coming of age film.
I just turned 25 a month ago, and these photos were taken by my good friend Angel a week after, when I went to visit family in the south. So funny how put together I look here; a far cry from my longganisa-chomping self right now.
But I think this is exactly it—when we think about being 25, a lot of us get nervous. Quarter. Life. Crisis. Everyone talks about it, and it can be very difficult. I know, because I’ve had friends who have shared stories with me.
Do I have it all figured out? I would say, based on current-Me and put-together-Me, sometimes you do, sometimes you don’t. I don’t know if I’ll go through the whole quarter life crisis situation; maybe I actually already did, mildy, when I was 24. But no matter what phase you are in your life, as I always say, the important thing is you don’t stop.
You don’t stop dreaming. You don’t stop wanting. You don’t stop trying. When you lose focus for a minute, a day, a few weeks, snap right back into it when you catch yourself. Take a break, but don’t stop. I’ve taken a ton of breaks in between, and I think that’s completely fine. It’s a reward you give to yourself.
Turtle Neck & Necklace - Stradivarius; Jeans - H&M; Sunglasses - Fly Shades
Photographed by Angel Rodriguez
And always remember that while there will be days when you will have your hair perfectly blow dried, white turtle neck neatly tucked into your pants, and walking in a pair of heels without tripping, there will also be days when you will be sitting in your flat smelling like garlic, searching the Internet for instructions on 'how to adult'. And in the end, having it “all figured out” wouldn’t even matter, because eventually, hopefully, you will figure things out one by one.